Its 10:32pm on Tuesday 18th November and II leave for my latest adventure tomorrow i'm currently writing this, watching a movie (Winters tale in case you are wandering. So far i'm finding it a little slow and am a bit patchy on whats going on but that might have more to do with me not giving it my full attention than anything else) and eating a bowl of cocoa pops.
After months of working and saving my penny's, weeks of planning, and days of running around like a headless chicken to get everything ready before I go, I finally think i'm set, all I need to do now is pack but everything is ready to go into my bag so i'm not to concerned about leaving that until the morning. and so i'll tell you my story about the title.
Tears-lately so many things have been going wrong there have been a lot of tears which leads into
Tantrums- There have also been quite a few of those today I downloaded iTunes onto my new laptop
(i'm writing this on my new laptop its the first time I have ever traveled with a laptop and i'm thinking it should be quite useful but also means I have something else to worry about. its a beautiful little machine small and light and does everything I need it to, now that I have it going of course.) but then when I plugged in my iPod and synced it (without reading the little pop up box ) I somehow managed to wipe my iPod and ended up with only 52 songs, several hours later (and several rather explicit tantrums later) I finally figured out how to get my old library onto my new laptop (FYI if it ever happens to you just ask me I wasted so much time that I will never get back following needless instructions from the apple website!) and so I segway seemlessly into
Signs- I have always been a great believer in everything happens for a reason, sometimes the reasons aren't clear, sometimes the lessons learnt are hard, but there is always a reason why things don't go to plan. When I first got back to NZ last year the plan was to only stick around for a month or two but it soon became clear that financially that wasn't going to happen, in some ways i'm grateful that it didn't work out as I have enjoyed spending time with friends and family I hadn't seen in years and I know now without a doubt that NZ isn't the country for me. I can safely say I tried, that I gave it a go but that I don't belong here. So back to what I was saying about signs, there have been so many roadblocks constantly halting my plans and holding me up, it took months to get insurance, took me an age to figure out time frames and flights, I had battles about pay, accidentally deleted about 600 photos while trying to back them up, and lets not forget the debacle with iTunes from earlier. I feel like all these things have happened for a reason, maybe its to test me, maybe its a sign of things to come or maybe the universe has thrown so many obstacles in my way to make me appreciate the good things that are coming. Because good things are coming.
Lists-I have lists of things to do, things to get, things to pack, things to remember things to do. Lately every day has started and ended with a list and I think its helped me to get everything done but my lists tend to be longer than they need to be since I write things like shower, eat breakfast, shower etc on them it makes me feel like I have achieved more and keeps the tears and tantrums at bay.
And so the last thing to mention is Leaving- which is what ill be doing tomorrow I have a vague idea of what the next few months have in store and that's the way I like it for as Paulo Coelho once said
After months of working and saving my penny's, weeks of planning, and days of running around like a headless chicken to get everything ready before I go, I finally think i'm set, all I need to do now is pack but everything is ready to go into my bag so i'm not to concerned about leaving that until the morning. and so i'll tell you my story about the title.
Tears-lately so many things have been going wrong there have been a lot of tears which leads into
Tantrums- There have also been quite a few of those today I downloaded iTunes onto my new laptop
(i'm writing this on my new laptop its the first time I have ever traveled with a laptop and i'm thinking it should be quite useful but also means I have something else to worry about. its a beautiful little machine small and light and does everything I need it to, now that I have it going of course.) but then when I plugged in my iPod and synced it (without reading the little pop up box ) I somehow managed to wipe my iPod and ended up with only 52 songs, several hours later (and several rather explicit tantrums later) I finally figured out how to get my old library onto my new laptop (FYI if it ever happens to you just ask me I wasted so much time that I will never get back following needless instructions from the apple website!) and so I segway seemlessly into
Signs- I have always been a great believer in everything happens for a reason, sometimes the reasons aren't clear, sometimes the lessons learnt are hard, but there is always a reason why things don't go to plan. When I first got back to NZ last year the plan was to only stick around for a month or two but it soon became clear that financially that wasn't going to happen, in some ways i'm grateful that it didn't work out as I have enjoyed spending time with friends and family I hadn't seen in years and I know now without a doubt that NZ isn't the country for me. I can safely say I tried, that I gave it a go but that I don't belong here. So back to what I was saying about signs, there have been so many roadblocks constantly halting my plans and holding me up, it took months to get insurance, took me an age to figure out time frames and flights, I had battles about pay, accidentally deleted about 600 photos while trying to back them up, and lets not forget the debacle with iTunes from earlier. I feel like all these things have happened for a reason, maybe its to test me, maybe its a sign of things to come or maybe the universe has thrown so many obstacles in my way to make me appreciate the good things that are coming. Because good things are coming.
Lists-I have lists of things to do, things to get, things to pack, things to remember things to do. Lately every day has started and ended with a list and I think its helped me to get everything done but my lists tend to be longer than they need to be since I write things like shower, eat breakfast, shower etc on them it makes me feel like I have achieved more and keeps the tears and tantrums at bay.
And so the last thing to mention is Leaving- which is what ill be doing tomorrow I have a vague idea of what the next few months have in store and that's the way I like it for as Paulo Coelho once said
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